by Sarah S., your NoVAtions editor
“We learned about honesty and integrity—that the truth matters... that you don't take shortcuts or play by your own set of rules... and success doesn't count unless you earn it fair and square.” -Michelle Obama
“The truth matters.” It matters in all aspects of our lives, but for those of us who are compulsive overeaters it matters the most and is most complicated regarding our relationship with food. I’ve been working this program for two and a half years, and I still struggle with the truth: that I am a compulsive overeater, that it’s not enough to just admit defeat, that to truly recover I have to be honest. So I’ll be honest with you: Instead of truly working toward a healthy body weight, I have been taking shortcuts and playing by my own set of rules. Sure, I’m not eating sugar or binging, but I’m not using the tools of the program to keep myself safe from excess food. Because of what I’ve learned in the rooms, I’ve been able to be honest with fellows and ask for help.
If you’re new to OA, you’re probably already getting honest. You’ve probably admitted to yourself that it’s not a slow metabolism, you may not just have bad genes, you really do eat that much. In short, that you have a problem with food. You are amazing. That honesty will help you recover. There’s no shame here. No judgment. We’ve all done similar things. You can be honest with us, but more importantly, please continue to be honest with yourself.